This weekend I get to go up to Idaho and see if I fall in love with one of these adorable parti poms. I've been wanting a dog for awhile now. I thought it would be good for me. While in the hospital the Dr. told me that he suggests that I get a small pet to help give me purpose and feel needed. I can't tell you how excited I am and the idea of having a little dog to come greet me after a hard day at work. It would be so wonderful to be so loved. I just hope its close to the feeling I would get when I watch Caden and Hyrum run towards me in such excitement that their little legs almost didn't move fast enough.
I wont be bring a puppy home yet. I'm not quite ready. First off I have to move because my landlord is alergic to dogs, cats, and horses. Not that I could have a horse but that would be awesome. The puppy I'm hoping to be ready for in a couple of months or so. I've been able to get a couple of things from the DI for super cheap. In fact I got a travel kennel and I dog cage for free here because of good old DI $'s. What a blessing. Those can be incredibly expensive.
Well wish me luck! I'm leaving later today to see 5 puppies. I hope I will be able to make a decision. :)

2 weeks ugg!

It was my goal, and as hard as I tried to stay healthy enough I still went back to the hospital. The first couple of days I was furious at myself for not being strong enough to achieve my goal. I now realize that all illnesses have relaps including mine. It's ok that I had to go to the hospital. In a way it was a blessing....in a way! I am now on different meds. that hopefully will help me with time. If not I guess I'll have to go to a real phyco Dr. again to have him do his magic. I really like the Dr. I had in the hospital though I doubt that I can afford him.

Part of my continued therapy that I'm to do now that I'm out of the hospital is to get a small animal for theraputic reasons. I can totally see how this would be benifital to me. I would never be alone and I'd have someone there to love me no matter what. Plus I would be needed. Which I dont feel like thats the case right now. The only problem is that my landlord is alergic to cats and dogs. So now I have to move to be able to get that therapy/puppy I so desire. A huge problem with that is I dont have the money to pay for a deposit, a months rent, and all the stuff for a new dog. Bummer! I'm sad. What to do?!!