My Story...

Yesterday my great therapist decided to have me tell my parents MY STORY. Tonight is the night and I'm terrified. First of all talk about vulnerable. Next I'm so afraid to be real with the pain of the abuse of my childhood in front of my parents. I don't want to hurt them. I can only imagine what it must be like to be in the parents position. I don't want to make it worse. At the same time I'm terrified to open those deep wounds in front of my parents who in the past have not believed the abuse ever happened.

I really am soooooooooooo nervous! Yes really I'm stressing about it that much. I have had a huge headache all day and my hands wont stay still. I want so badly for them to understand for them to believe me. I'm afraid of how/ if I will be able to cope with them treating me harshly or not believing me after I step out on this limb. I really think this will be it for me. I will try to be patient with their response and actions afterwards. Give them a little time to absorb it, but after this I will be done. I will have to move somewhere else to get the support that I need. I don't know where I will get it at this point, but I will be not putting myself in this situation again if it does not go well. I don't even know if I can handle it now let alone another time.

Wish me luck! I hope the spirit is there to testify!In the end hopefully we all come out better!